A New Do Was Due

Sometimes the smallest change can yield the greatest results.

I got six inches of hair cut off last weekend, and I couldn’t be happier. I had no idea how much it would do for my spirit.

It’s funny the more I think about it. You see, this last year has been incredible and incredibly hard – mostly for me. I’m not boo-hoo’ing, I promise, I’m doing much better these days!! Thank you 5HTP, Vitamin B-12, and Jesus! But, moving across the country was tougher on me than I expected. There’s just been so much change, so much loss. I wish I could sit with you and tell you all about it over coffee. Mmm, coffee.

I won’t go into all the details, but we’ve given up/lost a lot this last year and a half. I sat a couple of weeks ago, weeping and pouring everything out to Brent of how I was feeling. And so much of it was selfish, people! Sleeping on air-mattresses in the living room and having to take my Oregon Duck sticker off my car so Brent can drive it for Uber and Lyft were part of my pity party weepy session. I told you it was selfish.

It makes me laugh now. My hardest days would be someone else’s answer to prayer! And I get that more now than ever having seen what I have seen here in Los Angeles.

Still, what I have felt/am feeling is valid, and I am processing the losses and navigating the new.

So the fact that cutting off all my hair was so fulfilling to me is utterly hilarious!

Except that is was a loss that I controlled.

And that’s it. Everything has felt so out of control – out of my control – and this silly haircut lifted my spirits and lightened the weight. I thought it strange at first, then realized that I needed this. A change I saw coming. No surprises.

I feel lighter. I feel new. I feel like I have the most talented daughter on the planet! Look what she did, y’all!

I believe God sees all, knows all, and is never unaware. There are no small things to him. I imagine he chuckled as he saw me reacting to my new do. He knew I needed a splash of joy. And joy was found.

 

 

3 thoughts on “A New Do Was Due

  • Tam, this is SO true. I can totally relate. Also, I’m about to hack some inches off of mine as well and I know it’s going to feel amazing and as you said “Just one thing I actually CAN control losing.” I get it. I’ve been following you guys’ journey for some time now and I just want to tell you not how much I admire you, or how awesome you guys are (which is all true) but how that as a sister in Christ I can tell you that you are the truest, rawest, picture of what it truly means to be a Jesus follower. You guys are about as real as it gets and if I know my Father like I think I do, I’d say He is quite pleased with you. I love just love you and your honest heart and how you encourage and inspire others of us to be “Kingdom minded” in so many ways. <3

    • Rachel! Way to get my tear ducts operating first thing in the morning!! I know your intent here – you are a straight talker and have never been (as long as I’ve known ya) one to stroke one’s ego. So, your words I will keep close to my heart. Yesterday I asked the Lord to help me stay in His presence – I asked Him to remind me of His ways and to encourage me with HIS joy and help me to become God-confident and less Tam reliant. He used you to speak to me – undoubtedly. What an encouragement to my spirit today! Thank you, Lord – and thank you, sweet Rachel! Gosh, thank you. You are a blessing!

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