An Unexpected Confession

If you have seen me say it once, you have seen me say it a hundred times – Confession Brings Freedom. It doesn’t only bring freedom for you; depending on what you are confessing, it can very possibly bring freedom to others.

This is why I am so open about all the uglies and baggage of my life. It frees me up and it gives others hope.

Today I am sharing a confession with you. This confession is not my own. This confession takes a lot of courage. This confession takes my breath away. 

This confession is my son’s. 

Dakota “Kota” is our amazing boy. He is 19 and, truly, one of the most sincere, loving, caring, and thoughtful souls I know. Ask anyone who knows him and they will likely say the same.  Kota has lived with a thorn in his side for years. In fact, when I think way back to his younger years… I see it now.

Last year Kota began seeing a counselor and he was given a diagnosis we all suspected.

Kota has anxiety induced OCD.

It is beyond just having to have the car volume set on an even number. Currently the compulsions make it nearly impossible for him to fall asleep before 3am. His nighttime rituals have become so numerous and mind owning that he is enslaved by them. 

The heavier load of compulsions are due to a heavy amount of anxiety. I have shared recently that our family is in transition and changes are impending – and that’s ok, don’t get me wrong, but they do not come without concern. And for someone who battles anxiety induced OCD, it is an even heavier weight. 

Kota and I talked at length about this Saturday night. He shared that he feels alone in this and hates that others who suffer may feel alone too. This is why he is confessing and sharing. And when he decided that he would share this confession with you, he came alive! Not because he wants attention – the boy hates attention. He came alive because he has seen how confession in my life has encouraged and helped others, and that is something he wants to play a part in in this world. 

This is the beginning of a new dialogue for our family. You will soon hear from Kota himself in a #90orUnder video this week. He is ready to go public, be vulnerable, and encourage others.

And my momma heart is asking you for prayer. Not only for him, but for whomever he might encourage along the way.

2 thoughts on “An Unexpected Confession

  • Kota, my heart breaks for what you have to deal with on a daily basis. It is a prison of sorts. Thank you for being willing (for WANTING) to share your story with others. I can only imagine how many people you will be helping. I’ll be praying for you as you walk out this next part of your journey. Carry on with the strength that our Amazing God has given you!

  • I’ll be praying for you, Kota! Thank you for being honest and vulnerable. Many lives will be encouraged because of your bravery!!

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